Tuesday, December 11, 2018

Those few moments - 16 Nov 2018

Very Precious to me
just like U are,
those few minutes
when you make me feel
on top of this world.

Times when I want
the Universe to stay as is;
Time to become standstill
and we remain,
just as we are.

I know all mothers love
with a protective shield,
still there are moments
when I feel the delicate
being that you are...
that I wish,
no harsh reality
ever dawns on you, my little one.

I have so many sweet moments
with you, daily.
Moments that tug on the heart strings
asking never to let go.
But we get busy almost immediately
and the longing to capture
the emotional bonding
remains deep within...

When I bathe you
and you giggle, as I
wash your feet and your toes,
when I wrap you up
like a cocoon
and you snuggle upto me,
to kiss my cheek
or better still
keep your wet cheek on mine!

When I am making you eat
and you refuse to finish off
the last few bites,
and then you say,
you would have a last one
for me!

When you play with your toys
asking me to jump in
and you make tea for me
and hand the empty tea cup
oh so gingerly!
I love it when you insist
on setting the table,
bringing in plates
for all of us.

Times when you clean up
the room, picking your
stuff and putting it aside,
and then happily declaring -
"I did the clearing up."
More than the clean up,
I love the sparkle in your eyes
and the look that
demands a hug for a job happily done.

Of course, how can I forget,
when you put your fingers around mine
in your sleep, clasping my hand
within your palm.
Or, putting your arm
around my neck,
making yourself comfortable
in the happy sleepy realization
of your mother sleeping in with you.

Though I gloat over these love-me moments,
there are those in which
you have the hearts of two boys at home
entwined with your caring.

No wonder they say
daughters are special.
Lado - You make me
feel blessed daily.
Quite like your bro
but different nonetheless,
In so many ways...

These are moments non-tradable
with any riches of the world,
the soul-enriching love
that can come only from a child.
My precious,
"Precious" you will always remain.

Being Thoughtful...



7th Nov:
She whispers into my ears
I love you mummy
more than I love bhaiya paapa...
I love u morrreeeee
moreeeeeee moreeeeeeee.....................
u r my sweet cutie mumma.
u loveee me so much, right?
I know :)))

I am your baby know.
when I am big
I will make chai for you
food also
I will do work also
I will go to office?
then when I come back
I take care of you, ok?
I will play with you also
:))))))))))

5 Nov:

Sometimes you are like
sitting on a fence...
wondering, why the cold shoulder.

At other times
you have the confidence
of a trusted partnership.

It's okay,
today this thought
tomorrow this would also take flight.
Don't get affected,
take it light!


4 Nov:

I was saying...
Sarah gets easily impressed;
and he chimes in,
with a grin...
'just like her mom' :P

Mimicry... - 22 Oct 2018

Sometimes when I am trying to teach something to the little one and she continues to do as she pleases (against my instructions); I tell her - "agar samajhna nahin hai toh mat samjho. Jab chot lagegi tab pata chalega..." - Meaning - If you want to disregard what you are being taught, go on. When you get hurt, you will know.

I didn't know even when she is pretending to be her own boss, she is absorbing my words. The other day, she was trying to make Jeshee agree to something. He was not willing to give in and she announces (in a 'I don't care' tone) - "agar samajhna nahin hai toh mat samjho" :)))

Tuesday, October 30, 2018

Words...


29 Oct 2018

Close friend going through
loss of a parent...
I only have words to console,
But no heart to say,
few wounds rarely ever heal.

Somehow its different
from all other losses...
The child inside is awakened
in sadness. Bereft.
And there is no looking back.

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The other day,
while chit-chatting with
my 13 year old,
I had a faint feeling;
He wanted me to keep listening,
forget to be a parent!
When my expressions gave away my thoughts,
He says - "Ma chill! It didn't snowball into trouble.
Now - listen happily..."
I forgot whatever I was thinking!

This age is so quick
to absorb weird things.
Temper tantrums may return
just like being hyper has!

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Little one pushing away
the older one, saying -
Mom's lap belongs to me!
I jump in to remind,
Older one is now old
but first came He!
Since he has shared happily,
ever since, Can't she?
Pat comes the reply,
Mom belongs to we!!!
Relieved me. :)

100th Post - Slow Down...

Last two days,
you had been fussy
just before leaving for school...
strange for us,
as its something
U normally never do.

I tried every method
to tackle your mood swing...
I was trying to do
root-cause analysis too!

This morning, you were about to
get started with the sulky mood,
Done with your lazing around,
done with your food...

I casually mentioned,
you could play with water
for a while,
Oh my, how sulk became a smile!

You became so excited
at getting to play
with a bucket of water,
you forgot you were going to
give me a hard time.

And I learnt sweet-heart,
sometimes we need to
slow down the rush hour.
It is such a mood enhancer
when you see your little one
enjoy her age, time no bar.

Thursday, August 30, 2018

Spill-over...


29-Aug 2018

Sometimes it's better
to leave things unsaid...
especially when you run the risk
of letting emotions run wild.

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You came to me crying profusely
about something silly.
Strange, all that pacified you
was a hug, my baby.

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Earlier, when your team lost
you would be upset for an hour or so...
Teenage has just begun,
And I can see, emotions on the run!

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After so many years,
saw someone wearing
the kind of shoes you wore...
Something within me stirred,
Missed you.

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Few days ago, a friend mentioned,
I laugh sometimes to stop from crying...
I was wondering, how many deep pains
within each heart thrive...

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To dress you up,
I would like to call the shots.
However, you always demand,
"This top and this shorts"
"Ok, mumma?"
Making me feel I am still the Boss?!

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Just loved it baby...
when I was sick
while wishing me good night,
You asked God
to take away my fever.
Who truly made me recover?


23-Aug 2018

It takes a lot of strength
call it what you may,
to be in a situation
and still, be able to
look far, beyond, and, away.

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Life filled with moments that are spent happily
for children as well as me...
as parents that is all we wish
for our little ones, don't we?

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dard hai toh
ussay bina shikan sambhalna,
isi ko shayad
kehtey hain khul key jeena.


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Ek nanhi si jaan
uska kya hoga
soch kar hoon pareshaan...
aaj khush hai woh,
bus rahey gum say
aisay hi anjaan.
Khud ki komal bhavnao ko
bana rahey mazbut hum,
sabki dor thaamey
baithey hain na Bhagwan.
Kuch toh socha hoga Unhonay
Baanayengey koi rassta.
Mushkil lag raha jo,
hoga aasan.



02 - 05 Aug 2018

Subh-subh khidki key paas
zor say goonjti
chidiyon ki aawaaz...
aur kuch palon mein
un aawazon mein ghulta
bachchon ki baaton ka shor.
Dono kitney ek samaan,
aaj yahan, kal kahin aur.

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"Baaed Boyyyyy"
kehker bhaiyon ka mann mohti...
baar baar seediyon sey
uppar-neechey hukum say ley jaati.
Pata nahin woh chotain hain
yaan yeh chutki choti!

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poori koshish karta Ayush
Sarah ko apni godh mein bhitaney ki.
Lekin yeh, Yash bhaiya ki deewani.


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Fursat mein bitayey kitney pal
Aur unn palon mein yeh ehsaas...
Bachchon ka bachpan kitni jaldi
bhaag raha hai.
Phir say inn nanhi jaano ko
khud mein sahej loon
inki kahi baaton ko, inki harkaton ko,
inka bachpan hi bus pakad loon...
kyunki bahut jald
yeh fursat bhi phisal jayegi.


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You say so many sweet things
every single day...
And I wonder my baby,
how and where to keep it all
safe in my memory...
Coz when memory fails me,
will reading it all,
bring back the beautiful moments
in which You bind Me?

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27-July 2018

All good ideas
start striking the mind
after the event is over.
Happens to U too?

26-July 2018

Missing it sometimes
these days now...
You cuddling in with me.
There are times when in your sleep
you move your palms on my face
and I just love the baby smell
That engulfs the mommy in me!

08-June 2018

Life runs past,
kids grow up fast,
I was going slow
now back to a fast pace...
surprising myself on the go?


Sarah Speaks... June 2018

1. "Highlighter!" - You know the word and you say it so clearly. When I asked you if you wanted to color with it - You stumped me by saying, "nahin, isssey coloring nahin kartay. Book mein light kartay hain" (No, we don't color with this. We 'light' the book with it)

2. "cayle" (for scale)

3. "Aap mujhey maarogay toh nahin na" -- Sometimes, when she is being naughty or fussy, I tell her - "come here" little sternly. She knows the tone so asks me this. As if I beat her otherwise. But by asking this - she ensures the softness within me comes as a smile.

4. "Woh log mujhey ghar lekey aayengey na" -- This she asks about her daycare drop. Irrespective of having explained to her countless times lovingly. One day, I found the best answer. I told her - "The didis in your daycare also have to go home. So, they are not going to keep you there. They will definitely bring you back home safely to us." Finally convinced, she doesn't ask this anymore.

5. "Papa - aap gussa toh nahin ho na" -- She asks this when her father gives her a stare. :) She copies his stare perfectly too!

6. "Mainey bola na" -- Children really copy us more than we think. Sometimes, when she gets angry with me, she talks just like I talk to her when I am angry. She tells me one day, "mainey bola na. Did you licchen (listen)?"

7. "Aap meray paas hi chohogay na" -- This one is my favourite. Times when I am not sleeping in with her, when I am tucking her in, she confirms that I will be sleeping with her. The day she asks this, I am tempted to act like I am sleeping right then, with her!

8. "Aapney khaana kha liya?" -- If I announce that I am sleeping with her (while she goes to sleep), she is always quick to ask me if I have eaten food. I love the concern for me that she shows, more than her happiness, though she is just a child of three!

9. "Aap mujhey lenay aaogay na?" -- This she used to ask when I used to pick her up from the daycare. I loved this confirmation.

10. "Agar koi mujhey maarega toh aap kya karogay? chutney bana dogay na?" -- This shows the faith in the power of her parents. :)

12. "Chicken...pehley chicken khaoonga, pehley mutter khaoonga" -- Always asking for anything that accompanies the main food - rather than the food. If chicken is there on the plate, everything else takes a second seat. Same with peas, carrots, curd, cucumber, onions... The list goes on.

13. "Cucurum" - This is how she says "cucumber". Nowadays, its also "cucubum".

14. "Nonshenshh" -- When she doesn't understand what her brother is asking, she says, "bhaiya is telling nonshenshh (nonsense)". :))

Monday, July 23, 2018

Bonding with Saro... Today and Tomorrow...

You make the space in me feel full,
with your little sweet nothings...
Your teeny meeny concerns
speak louder than your words.

I have been longing to write about you,
about how you came to be mine
and how you have grown,
taking the 3 of us along,
like a powerful emotional tsunami within...

For the life of me,
I can never forget,
though, now, no more I regret,
the way God brought you into my arms.

I was fearful from the time
you came suddenly,
but over time, the fears have given way
to the love of a lifetime.

I remember clearly, when oh so gingerly,
I prayed for us when I held you close,
the second day of your birth.
I was so surprised at you being so small,
but nevertheless, so thankful for all being well.

I knew God had pulled us through,
if not He, who could have?
I am indebted forever
and grateful indeed with every strand of my being.

You may never understand sweetheart
what it meant to be at the verge
of losing it all, and convincing myself
and those around me...
that all will be well.

Now that you and I have been together
happily for last few years,
plus the time you were only mine,
I can recall happily
how excited your bro had been
when you had just arrived.

The first night after you came,
I didn't get enough of you to hold...
and I stayed without you overnight
separately,
that was the toughest so far.
I didnt want to go away
even for myself, dear one;
but I had to...
Thankfully, we returned to each other
and everything that happened before,
became a dream.

If your bro is special to me
being my first born,
you are even more special my dear
for all the joys you have brought along.

You bring so much more meaning
to our lives, with your innocence...
Years may pass and time will fly
I wish we remember your childhood
with this clairvoyance!

Watching the two of you...

July 2018...

Watching you sleep
so peacefully my baby...
wish to continue the rhythm
from within me...

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I call you Laado
I call you Shona, Paato,
Golgappa, Gobi aloo
cheeku, channa meraya
and of course, motiiiiii....
And you put your small arms around me,
cheekily refusing to let me kiss you.
Love your innocence,
and yes, love your arrogance too!
What to do?

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You are growing up just fine,
but I find you lanky now.
Mush is there somewhere
waiting to appear...
Its just teenage beginning for you
and look at what you do,
measuring yourself against me all the time!

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And what's that you do
Dab, dab, dab...
your little sis copying you
In equal madness
you spill around.

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Dame' t'Casito
Fun to watch you two
perform like aliens,
so naturally...


Friday, June 8, 2018

You just started your "Nursery:...
One small step for you,
One leap of Joy for me!